The honest to god truth is your P/L will start trending back in a profitable direction when your trading is good enough. The market is the best teacher.

I think I know enough this time round to finally break out of the red, but the market will determine if that's the case or not.

I know I'm gonna get to where I need to be. Been trading better than ever. I'm not even two full years into being into the markets and I can better read of what's going on... when the price is trending, when to play, when not to play. I'm learning from losing trades. I have to.

This trading account, this is my ticket. There's a lot of dreams riding on this.

This market can crush you if you don't know what you're doing. It can ruin lives. It breaks many who end up playing it safe and letting someone else manage their money.

What we're trying to do here is climb Everest. I've never climbed a mountain or done any extreme arduous physical journey, but this sure feels like one of the biggest mountains I still have yet to climb.

I'm so hungry to make this happen. I've quit trading a few times already because it's hard to stomach the fact that I failed.

Coming back in 2022, I can stomach the swings better. I'm okay with the fact I'm not super wealthy right now. What hasn't changed is I love trading. It's such an honest to god adrenaline rush and I got arguably more excited today over my $7 winner than my $300 win because the $7 was the first time catching a runner into open right as it happened.

I fucking love trading. I'm so excited to wake up and try and find opportunities to make money.

I must say that my trading has hurt myself in the past though. That's why I'm not trying to rush the process too much because I honestly love every aspect about markets and exploring new ways to make money.

I look at this as if I trade well I can continue to fuel my own addiction. I know that's a strong word but there's a reason I keep coming back and have a hard time not looking at the charts.

Eventually this huge little interest of mine is going to become an amazing source of income. The markets are already a great source of happiness and excitement and I am going to make sure never to risk my account in a way that could jeopardize my ability to trade and in turn negatively affect my life.

What I'm currently working on is my gambler's mentality. Can I hold on to gains for sustained periods of time now? I think I'm much better but time will only tell.

-Dream big or why are you on here?